Suicidal feelings after losing the man i love....Have you ever felt this way?

I'm 27 and theres this Man i met who was exactly everything and MORE than what i could dream of having in a partner, he was like a dream come true, as corny as it sounds i felt god gave me everything ive prayed for, i couldnt believe that this was real, honestly he really is a kind and good man at heart. Everything about his being i loved even his imperfections i loved.I cant explain every little detail but, long story short, he no longer talks to me; its been 6 months, and honestly, its not his fault or my fault, the situation was just not good, bad timing, bad circumstances. i just guess it just wasnt fate. I feel like it was a dream come true in every way and then found out its over, now its a nightmare, it hurts everyday. I'm scared i wont ever find someone who will measure up to him. I miss having him around and I feel so embarrassed that he stopped talking to me